Watch me jump off the deep end

It's mad how narrow our minds are and we just assume that everything will be the same forever. It's kind of scary in a way, because you're allowing yourself to believe that the way your life sits at that very moment will most likely be the way it will be in 20 years time....but everyone knows, (although sometimes now wanting to believe it) that things must change now or then. I am probably one of those people who don't want to believe it, purely because I lack the confidence to realise that there's life outside of my "comfort zones." When I say comfort zone, I literally mean the things that are the most natural to me in the world....leaving a comfort zone suddenly is really difficult, because you wake up one day and everything's different....it's like, you're a different person and you have to adapt to this major change, whether you like it or not. I don't even know why I'm saying all of this, I guess I'm just really aware that it's coming into winter now, a very depressing time of year....last year was horrible for me. I don't want to let myself relive that anxiety again.

My Mum always says to me "Scary is good." I just wish I could understand that more.



Meh. I've just finished my 6 day in a row stint and I'm quite tired at this stage. I'm supposed to be in for 9 tomorrow morning with a finished report that I'm allegedly doing right now.